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Wow..it just amazes me how fast time just goes.  Even just the time during the work day.  January is over already…its just crazy!

Everything is going well on the fitness front.  Im not sure how much I have lost since I got my new diet on January 4th but im feeling good.  Clothes are still fitting comfortably and the boobs are getting lighter so I know im losing but its slow….and I get impatient and I want it now but I know its not how it works so im just taking it a day at a time. 

My flight and the hotel is booked for the Arnold!  Im so excited I get to see my bud again!  Its been a year!!!  Way too long!  There are also a bunch of other chickies that im excited to see again and  also some that I talk to but have never met…I get to finally meet them in person too!  So this should be a fun trip….as long as it doesn’t snow and make it hard for me to get out of philly.  (Fingers crossed).  Two girls are competing in the amateur on Thursday night so we are going to that show this year..last year we didn’t go but this time we are…so that should be fun….we are going to have to hustle our butts to get there because my flight gets in at 3:00 and the show is at 7:00 so hopefully we will make good time and get there as early as we can

In my last post I had mentioned some goals that I had in my head and I really hate even putting them out in this blog because it seems so out of reach for me sometimes and it is just a dream for me…but maybe if I put it in writing it will make it more realistic?  Probably not but what the heck right?  I want to be able to place at a show so that I qualify for nationals…there…I said it…I have a lot of work to do and im not even sure if its even possible…but everyone needs a goal right? 

To be able to qualify for nationals seems like such a big impossible dream….well so would being on the national stage! 

It is going to take a lot of work and sacrafice and tears to get where I want to be.  A part of me believes that I can do it…the other part thinks im out of my mind….

I want to see what side wins

>Happy New Year….(a week late)

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Wow…I figure I may as well post since it has been exactly a month since I last blogged.  I promise that I will keep up with this more…especially since I really want to take some notes regarding my workout regime and how im feeling.  Basically just to be able to look back and know what was going on during the weeks and months as they go by.

I don’t want to continue to have this blog as a bashing session for me to put myself down and oh woe is me.  I have been playing the victim for way to long.  I continuously and repetitively put myself down over and over and it just gets me nowhere. 

So with a fresh year we are going to have a fresh outlook…and I am going to make this my year.  I have plans in my head that im really not ready to say out loud.  I will soon though. 

First off…I just have to backtrack on here for a minute.

The holidays were nice.  They weren’t so nice to my butt though.  I gained some poundage….not a whole lot but some.  I just couldn’t be a good girl everyday….and somehow I still have that mentality that I deserve it…whatever….maybe some day I will learn But its done and over.  There is nothing I can do so I move on….

Christmas eve my mom cooked…the Italian 7 fishes meal…way too much food….and some of it is fried…I helped cook so my clothes stunk like fried food when I got home and so did my hair…ugh!    We have Angelica for Christmas eve so we do her presents then.  She makes out well  

Christmas day (morning) we went to my sister’s house to see my nephew wake up to see what Santa brought him….oh and santa brought a whole lot!!  You couldn’t even walk!  It was crazy!  And the funny thing was,  he saw this Cars racetrack and that was all he could care about…we were all trying to get him to look at all his other presents….couldn’t care less….then we ate breakfast at my sisters and then opened presents and then went home for a bit.  For dinner we actually went to my brother-in-law’s sister’s house….sounds confusing but if you know anything about my crazy family you will know that while my family is close, his family is also….and there are many holidays we all spend together so it wasn’t an odd thing.  Dinner was great….Nicky’s sister Kim is actually watching what she eats and has lost about 50 pounds so far and so our dinner was pretty healthy……well healthier than it  normally would be. 

New Years Eve, me and adam went to dinner with my parents and then just went back to their house for midnight…it was nice and quiet and perfect And I didn’t overeat at dinner which made it even better! 

Now back to the present.

I put in for new workouts/diet plan and I started on Monday (well the workouts on Monday and the diet Tuesday).  I have a lot of prep with Mike’s meal plan..but im constantly eating which is nice. 

(this pic was taken from Gina Aliotti’s site..i printed it out real big and have it by my treadmill  

I have my work cut out for me….but I know I will get where I want to.  I just need to remember to take one day at a time. 

Lets do this!!!!!!!!!